Tell me what you want what you really really want.

#whatailsya – Quit beating around the bush. For every question asked, there is an answer that is desired. Are you brave enough to say why you want to know? Give a listen to this video for a new take on questions. Feel free to sing in the tune of Sam Smith – Swaaaaa(y) with me! 😀

Eat it or starve.

Today is the 2nd Day of Christmas.  I celebrate the 12 Days of Christmas, not because my birthday happens to fall in the middle – that is just ICING – but because it helps (me) to keep the true meaning alive.  So, we all know what “my true love gave to me” yesterday.  #BESTgiftEVER.  Today, my true love gave to me “two turtle-doves”.  Now, what exactly are turtle-doves anyway?  Turtles that look/act like doves? Did some research and some text liken a turtle-dove to a pigeon.  Hmm, I can’t recall anyone except M. Tyson liking pigeons.  According to some text, turtle-doves were the only birds permitted in sacrifice.  Just a lil something to make you go hmmm.  “Look at the birds in the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them.”  “The L-rd is my shepherd, I shall not want.”  He feeds his flock, every day.  It may not be what you want, but want, you shall not.

Some say the two turtle-doves represent the Old and New Testament.  Like birds, you leave one and go to the other, but sooner or later you go/refer back to the old.  By today’s standards G-d might be considered a hoarder.  He had the Old and then made something New but kept the Old, you know, just in case.  He and my grandmother are good friends, she kept a lot of things, “just in case.”  #whatailsya

Don’t talk, baby just move with me.

Last night/early this morning I wrote about the 3rd week of Advent.  It’s the 4th week, I can’t keep up.  Anywho, listening to the daily prayer and I was struck again by the text but I made that “WhachutalkinboutWillis” face. The scripture is Luke 1:26-38, another long, single reading.  I’m rather enjoying those.  It talks about the interaction between the Angel Gabriel and Mary.

The narrator invites you to set the scene with your imagination but I was more concerned with, what I perceived to be a double standard.  See, in the text, the reader notes that the Angel Gabriel appeared to Mary, greeted her and she, being human “Pondered what sort of greeting this might be”. He told her of her favor with the L-rd and what would come to pass. Mary then said to the angel “How can this be since I am a virgin?”  Gabriel explains the Immaculate Conception and adds that her relative Elizabeth, Zachariah’s wife, in her old age has also conceived a son, to which Mary respond “Here am I, the servant of the L-rd. Let it be with me, according to your word.” Then the angel departed from her.

Now, 6 months earlier, the Angel Gabriel visited Zachariah and gave him a message.  Him being human asked “How will I know that this is so for I am an old man and my wife is getting on in years.”  Gabriel explains who he is and why he is there, then says “But nigh, because you did not believe my words, which will be fulfilled in their time, you will become mute, unable to speak until the day these things occur.”

Now is it me, or does there seem to be a double standard here?  “How will I know?”  “How can this be?” both seem like valid questions to me, particularly when someone out of the blue appears with news/a message that is going to significantly change your life.  You can’t help but wonder, so why then was Zachariah “punished” for his disbelief/doubt and Mary was not?  The reader nor the text offers any indication as to whether or not Zachariah followed up his comment with acknowledgment and affirmation the way Mary did but it also doesn’t offer any indication that he was given opportunity.  May Zachariah should have spoken faster.

A lot is made about questioning G-d but if Mary had questions/curiosity, it stands to reason that we would too.  I believe in questioning G-d.  I will never know what I need to know if I don’t ask questions.  Now if I ask a question and he tells me “don’t worry about it, let me do what I do” okay.  I’ll stay in my lane.  We are taught that we should give all our problems, troubles, cares, woes, etc. over to the L-rd and he will take care of it all.  Eh, I’m not so sure.  I listened to a live streaming of my cousin’s husband preaching and he said something that was so spot on, I literally said “That’s it!” out loud.  He said, and I’m paraphrasing because I don’t have my notes, wherever he was in life, whatever he’d achieved, it wasn’t all G-d.  G-d helped but he helped too.  It was a partnership.  I think that ties into that whole faith without works is dead thing.  If G-d sees you working, then he’ll work.  If you aren’t working, he’ll still work but maybe not as hard.  Isn’t there something about G-d helps those who help themselves?  Maybe that’s how faith works.  He starts you off, you have to take it and do something with it, once he sees you doing something with it, he’ll help a little bit more.  The more you do, the more he does.  Seems fair to me.  But I digress.  I’m still on this double standard thing.  Why the difference when both people responded in a similar manner?  Could it be that Zachariah was fearful and Mary was perplexed? Fearful, perplexed, isn’t that just semantics?

Wikipedia defines double standard as: the application of different sets of principles for similar situations.

Merriam Webster defines double standard as: 1) Bimetallism, 2) a set of principles that applies differently and usually more rigorously to one group of people or circumstances than to another; especially :  a code of morals that applies more severe standards of sexual behavior to women than to men.

This is why I love the Advent season. It allows me to go deeper and learn more.  Yeah, I’m always learning throughout the year, but the learning seems to be better around this time of year because of the expectation of something so great.  Much is made about Christmas, Jesus, Santa. It’s not really his birthday, there is no G-d, there is no Santa, etc. Not preaching, just making a written observation.  Why does it matter to someone else what another person believes?  Whatever a person believes, that is their truth and who are we (society) to tell them otherwise?  This includes all the crap that went on with this, I can’t even really call it an election but for the sake of being consistent, this election.  Some things are blatantly wrong but if the person perpetrating the wrong thinks they are right, do you really think you are going to convince them they aren’t?  This “election” has, IMHO, made us all Zachariahs and Marys: fearful, perplexed, dumbstruck.  And if ever a double standard were present, it is never more so than with the current POTUS and the POTUS-elect.  #whatailsya

Definitely, Maybe.

As the third week of Advent gets underway, listening to the prayer of the day put so many thoughts in my head, I jumped out of bed to try to empty it, lest it be another sleepless night.  The reading comes from Luke 1:5-25.  Normally the readings aren’t this long but I appreciated the singular reading, as they usually read it again and offer different points of reflection.  Tonight, as I listened, I was immediately struck by one particular thing, Gabriel, the angel who appeared to Zachariah told him because he doubted, he was struck mute/dumb until fulfilled in time.  Now let that sink in.  He was struck mute/dumb because he doubted.  He did not believe what the Angel said would come to pass because he and his wife were of advanced years.  The power of doubt.  It gave me great pause because I have doubts, about quite a few things, sometimes that includes G-d.  It gave me great pause because maybe the people we encounter are sent to bring good news to us, after all, the power of G-d most often manifest itself through the actions and words of others, so why is it so difficult for us to believe?

It’s so ironic the things we will and won’t believe.  We believe the meterologist when they attempt to predict the weather. We believe people when they say they will do something or show up somewhere.  We believe people when they say “I love you”.  Zachariah was, at least he is characterized as, a G-d fearing man. Did he lose hope after so many years of not having his desire come to pass?  Seems that way.  Can you imagine being struck mute because you doubted something someone told you, only to have it come to pass later?  Truth be told, I’m not all that convinced he doubted but maybe he was curious as to how.  But, I guess that’s the same thing huh.

When a person gets hired, they are told when they will be paid.  I’ve never heard of anyone asking “How will I know?” Because the person may reply “It will show up in your account or in a live check” that’s how.  Maybe Zachariah had doubts because there was n0 precedent, nothing to show that what was being told to him had ever happened before.  He, like most of us, wanted proof.  He, like some of us, could not, did not want to take Gabriel at his word.  Why do you think that is?  His age?  His wife’s age?  The fact that they’d been “trying” for years with no results.  There was nothing to suggest that a baby was in the cards for them.  I know a few couples who’ve gone through IVF and other measures to have a baby and had no luck and when they stopped “trying” along came baby.

That one passage in this scripture has left me convicted because there are times when my doubts get the better of me.  I don’t mean for them to but human have a way of bringing out the cynic in you.  Our past and current actions tend to dictate future belief or doubt.  The proof is there, we must decide whether or not to believe what comes out of the mouth.  This passage saddened me and inspired me.  It made me reflect on my own doubts and beliefs and questions why I doubted what I did.  Where does my trust lie: in myself, in man, in G-d?  This is always hard to answer because if the Spirit of the Living G-d is housed within us, then if a person says something rather profound to you/about you, why shouldn’t you, wouldn’t you believe it? I’m not saying take all the negative things people say and accept and receive them, that’s nuts. But if someone speaks positivity and it happens to be something that you’ve been secretly or openly desiring, why not believe it? It’s human nature to wonder how but instead of asking How, ask When!  Little children rarely ask how, when told to expect something.  When conveys that you are ready and expecting it to happen.  How conveys you’re not really sure and want to know more details.   I’ve been working on removing How and replacing it with When.  If I can expect good things based off of what a human has told me, then surely I can expect good things from one who has never lied to be, never been wrong – at least not that I’m aware of – and pretty much keeps his word.

Think about this.  Think about the last thing you wanted, doesn’t matter if you verbalized it aloud or kept it hidden in your heart and you actually received it.  Now, imagine if someone had told you, you were going to receive whatever it was you desired but you didn’t believe them and you were struck mute until it happened.  Let me make it simple for you.  Someone says they are going to pick you up, you ask “You sure?” Boom, you’re mute until they arrive to pick you up, whenever that is.  Goes to show there really is great power in the tongue.  Every thought doesn’t need to be verbalized.  But then again, I suspect G-d knew he would doubt, thus using him as a message to others.  He had to point, gesture and use his body to convey his thoughts and the people knew he had seen a vision from G-d.  He will get his point across, BAMN.  Guess that’s why most men today are dumbstruck when a woman tells them she’s pregnant. What’s the matter, cat got your tongue?

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Til…Gr

There aren’t too many shows I watch but there are a few, among them Grace and Frankie.  Two women who, by societal standards, are in their golden years and find themselves single due to divorce.  Grace reunites with a love but there’s a catch – he’s married, but, his wife is terminal.  What’s a man to do?  He’s cared/caring for her but he has no companionship, none. Isn’t that one of the perks of being married – companionship.  I sat and pondered the question presented to Grace – should she engage in a relationship with Dude?  I saw here wrestle with it, go into the chapel and pray about it.  Is it wrong?  Is it merely giving into the flesh?  Where does the obligation end?  I found it quite interesting and for a moment, gave thought to what I’d do.  Can’t really say.  There’s something soulfully sad to have someone there/present and be utterly alone.

In Grace’s case, I’m not sure it was even about sex.  They appeared to enjoy each others company and maybe that’s all it was about, companionship.  Don’t we all need someone to talk to, to share our lives with?  Yes, we have Jesus, but it is not good for man to be alone.  Just because the body is there, are we to find comfort in that?  Such a difficult, yet rhetorical question.  For some, it’s obvious.  As Frankie says – “The vows say in sickness and in health” but there’s another part  “As long as we both shall live.”  The live part is debatable.  Are you really living?  Is it  possible to keep your vows – to love, honor, cherish, in sickness and in health, til death do you part – while not dying yourself?  Does the sickness of one mean the death of the other?  Does self preservation not have a say?

Again, it ain’t about the sex.  It’s about having someone there to attend to the needs.  But won’t Jesus attend to all your needs?  Surely, but again, we are charged to go forth and love one another.  Can that be done in the midst of another’s sickness?  It does give you pause, or at least it should.  When, exactly, does death occur?  Is it merely the cessation of all functions, it is the soul leaving the body, or is it the soul trapped in a lifeless body?

I don’t have any answers.  I’ve never found myself in that situation but I find it profoundly sad and complex.  Til, is a long time.  #whatailsya